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You Don't Know Me

10/11/2014

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I was feeling pretty good the other day.  And I decided to hop on my seven year old daughter’s new bike.  Lilli was so excited that she chased me around with the video camera!  I was having fun with all the kids in the alley, running circles around all of them.  Reese’s face lit up when she saw me as I circled her on her bike.  “Mommy I want to ride with you!”  As we rode side by side, she grinned from ear to ear.  In the mean time, Lilli had run and gotten her old bike.  She raced past me yelling, “Playground Mommy!”  So we rode our bikes to the playground and threw them down to the ground.  Seeing the monkey bars, I had this urge to try them.  Not thinking, I grabbed the first one, then the second, and so forth.  As I finished grasping the last bar, I dropped to the ground.  And I was quickly reminded of my situation, by the shooting pain going up and down my right arm.

…My picc line.

Whoops!  I didn’t think about that.

Wait, “I didn’t think about that!”

That means, the antibiotics… must. be. working. 

Lilli looks at me in amazement and says, “Mommy I’ve never seen you like this!”

As I flashed back to the athletic, fun, free spirited Sarah that had become only a distant memory, I said, “You don’t know me.”

Lilli says profoundly, “Yeah, you’re right.  All I know is that you are always in pain; you have Lymes Disease.  And… you used to have food allergies.”

Ouch.

Then I began to think.  Who knows that Sarah?  My family.  My friends from California.  My friends from Virginia Tech.  Thankfully, my husband remembers her. 

But, all of my friend’s here, my church, my children, they don’t know that Sarah. 

Most people don’t really see me as sick, because they don’t have anything to compare me to.  The daily pain, the weakness, the memory loss are easy to hide in front of everyone except my husband and girls.  They see the real thing.  But as easy as it is to hide my sickness, I can’t do most things that I once did.   

My body sets limits, where at one time I felt somewhat invincible.  

My dear friends and readers, will you please encourage me in Christ today?  

I saw a glimpse of what I once was, and I yearn for my children to know her.  

Will you please leave a comment below?  An encouraging Word for me? 

Thank you my dear friends and readers.

11 Comments
Amber
10/11/2014 01:21:05 am

Just the fact that you felt the urge to do all those things is a great sign!! God is healing you!! You will be back to your old self in no time and you will enjoy your life again! Sometimes we have to experience the bad days to appreciate the good ones and I believe you have experienced enough bad days and your time is coming to enjoy the good ones!!! I love you!! Amber

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Sarah Altizer
10/11/2014 04:48:41 am

Thanks Amber!! Tears. I needed that. I struggled to bring this post back around, so the Lord laid it on my heart to ask others to do that for me.

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David
10/11/2014 04:41:52 am

I am so thankful to know you, Sarah. The only Sarah I know is the one full of life in her spirit and full of love for others. I hate that you deal with so much that holds you back, but hopefully you will get better and in the meantime see them as your 'thorn in the flesh' that keeps you grounded and relying on Him. Love you much!

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Sarah Altizer
10/11/2014 04:50:38 am

Thank you David!!! Yes yes I needed that reminder. God is bigger than all of this!!

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Sabrina
10/11/2014 06:50:30 am

Sarah, Although I have not know you for very long, I feel that I have known you for years. I believe that is because of your strong, positive, and carefree attitude that you exude and impart on others. You are such a positive upbeat person and I think because of that, people don't always see the pain that you have been dealing with. You make others feel so good about themselves that we don't always see that someone may be struggling inside. I will continue to pray that you heal and get stronger every day. You are an inspiration to all! Hugs, Brie

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Sarah Altizer
10/11/2014 07:08:45 am

Thank you Brie! I feel the same way about you. You are such an amazing person!! Thank you so much for taking the time to encourage me. I love you girl!!!

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I love you! and each of the Sarah's are awesome! you are fearfully and wonderfully made! and though this season of illness has slowed you down it has never stopped you! and that's because of the God in you! praise Him!!! through every season you have all
10/12/2014 10:46:53 am

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ps hugs ~ Doty
10/12/2014 10:56:07 am

I love you! and each of the Sarah's are awesome! you are fearfully and wonderfully made! and though this season of illness has slowed you down it has never stopped you! and that's because of the God in you! praise Him!!! through every season you have always allowed God to use you as a vessel for His ministry and kingdom. The medicine may be doing their job but your faith has made you whole! No matter what comes in your life I know you always lean on Jesus and that is quite a legacy for your daughters! Praise God for Matt, you and your sweet girls!

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sarah Altizer
10/13/2014 11:26:54 am

Oh my word thank you so much Doty!!! I needed those words. And coming from you especially since you know me now and then. I love you!!! Proverbs 3:5-6. Specially from you before I was a Christian and now tattooed on my arm. You didn't know how the significance of showing me that verse at the time. But it's my life verse now!!! Love you girl!!!

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Allison
11/26/2014 04:30:29 am

Catching up on some of your posts . . . this one pulled at my heartstrings. Amazing to see the antibiotics work with our prayers, your faith, and God's grace. Your girls have a lifetime of learning about you. But you have shown and taught them two important things; you are constant and a fighter. No matter the storm, you are always there for them and to never lose faith or hope.

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Sarah
12/12/2014 10:48:53 am

Thank you Allison!! I'm so glad I know you. I know the Lord put you in my life!

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