Today I watched both of my beautiful daughters get on the bus. There will be thousands of these days, but this one was special. Today, my second daughter Reese got on the school bus for Kindergarten on her very first day. I know this is a special day for all moms, but this one is different for me. Reese and I have been sick together since the day she was born. We have fought together; we've fought for each other. She's held my hand many times as I got pricked for blood, and I've had to hold her down as she gave blood; I would cry my eyes out. She would lay with me everyday I was weak. She never left my side. She would rub me as I screamed in pain. This child has prayed over me hundred's of times for God to relieve the suffering (and God always did). She has sat in doctors offices for 4 and 5 hours and doesn't complain. Doctors and nurses couldn't believe how good she was. This compassion she has can only be obtained through our hardship.
At orientation I asked Reese, "Are you excited for Kindergarten?" Her reply made tears well up in my eyes, "Yes mommy, but.. but I used to take care of you." Trying to hold back the tears to be strong for her, I told her it was her turn to be a big girl and God will take care of mommy, just like He always does.
Oh and my sweet sweet Lilli. This child has also taken care of me. She's had to step up and take care of other things when Reese and I were unable. Lilli did things on her own, and has become a very independent little girl. These past couple of months I have been trying to really love on her. I feel that I have missed so many ways to show her how much I love her. As I write, the Lord reminds me that His grace is sufficient.
As parents we can beat ourselves up for all the cracks or grand canyons in our parenting, but if we truly are seeking after God's heart, be encouraged that His grace IS enough.
Today I sit and cry with bittersweet tears. This is a milestone for me.
At orientation I asked Reese, "Are you excited for Kindergarten?" Her reply made tears well up in my eyes, "Yes mommy, but.. but I used to take care of you." Trying to hold back the tears to be strong for her, I told her it was her turn to be a big girl and God will take care of mommy, just like He always does.
Oh and my sweet sweet Lilli. This child has also taken care of me. She's had to step up and take care of other things when Reese and I were unable. Lilli did things on her own, and has become a very independent little girl. These past couple of months I have been trying to really love on her. I feel that I have missed so many ways to show her how much I love her. As I write, the Lord reminds me that His grace is sufficient.
As parents we can beat ourselves up for all the cracks or grand canyons in our parenting, but if we truly are seeking after God's heart, be encouraged that His grace IS enough.
Today I sit and cry with bittersweet tears. This is a milestone for me.
