At orientation I asked Reese, "Are you excited for Kindergarten?" Her reply made tears well up in my eyes, "Yes mommy, but.. but I used to take care of you." Trying to hold back the tears to be strong for her, I told her it was her turn to be a big girl and God will take care of mommy, just like He always does.
Oh and my sweet sweet Lilli. This child has also taken care of me. She's had to step up and take care of other things when Reese and I were unable. Lilli did things on her own, and has become a very independent little girl. These past couple of months I have been trying to really love on her. I feel that I have missed so many ways to show her how much I love her. As I write, the Lord reminds me that His grace is sufficient.
As parents we can beat ourselves up for all the cracks or grand canyons in our parenting, but if we truly are seeking after God's heart, be encouraged that His grace IS enough.
Today I sit and cry with bittersweet tears. This is a milestone for me.