And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.”He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”
I read this story in light of my own life right now. I have prayed many times in the recent years for the Lord to use me as a vessel for His glory. I see myself as Peter here, saying "Lord call me out upon the waters with you." And I, as Peter listen to His voice and obey. And I find myself looking at Jesus in His eyes with this peace that surpasses anything I've ever known, yet I'm standing on a torrential wave of unknown and worldly insecurity. It didn't take long for me to realize, as Peter did, that this wave is impossible for me to handle, to walk on, to embrace, yet I am. But as I look at the wave, this task, the will that the Father has me on I squander my faith in fear... with doubt. And I find myself succumbed to the waves of this illness, disease, suffering. And I feel Jesus' touch, His hand meet mine in the waves as He pulls me back up into the boat. "Oh Sarah, my daughter, why do you doubt?"
A friend of mine, Mrs. Pugh, connected me with her friend who also has Lyme disease. She's had it for a whopping 20 years! Not only has she talked me through some recent trials with the disease that Reese and I are battling, but she has been on her knees praying for us. She has asked the Father to come to our rescue. Thank you Jane Hopkins Smith for your devotion to Christ, a devotion that urges you to have compassion on people like me (that you have never even met). Now that's the kind of little Christ's that God has called us to be.
She has connected me to a doctor that might be able to help us. I texted her to let her know that I made the phone call to make an appointment. And her sweet message warms my heart with love from my Father above, "I was just sitting here praying for you when you texted!" Wow. To God be the Glory Forever and Ever. And I feel Jesus' touch, His hand meet mine in the waves as He pulls me back up into the boat. "Oh Sarah, my daughter, why did you doubt?"